I don’t know if I’ve ever responded to this message, but seeing that just made my day way better. I love you and am so blessed to have you as a friend. I love you too. :)
I feel like my last ventings on here have been overwhelmed by emotional confusion. You would think I’d have it all solved by now…but it’s not. Have you ever had a connection with someone? Not just something in common, but a real connecting attachment.. I’ve allowed myself to become attached, and I’ve said I can’t do it, but it’s so hard to let go. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and I hate it. Every moment feels like it’s getting worse. I finally get what I’ve been waiting for and it’s too late. I can’t believe I put my trust back out for you just to be put back in the same position. What I did was the last thing I wanted. What I did was the thing I needed to do so that I don’t allow myself to be hurt again. Because I have gone through so much pain that I physically and mentally can’t handle anymore. I wish there was some way for me to make you understand how I feel and why this had to happen. If you could only see that, then you would understand why I did what I did…
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
I can’t think straight. I can’t sleep well. I have to force myself to eat. And at some moments, I feel like I can barely breathe. I hate this familiar feeling. I hate every single moment of it. I just want everything to get better.
haha love aj. precious video. ready for the holidays. :)
Danced all night, slept all day
Careless with my heart again
Fearless when it comes to playing games
You don’t cry, you don’t care
Afraid to have a love affair
Is that your ghost or are you really there?
Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I’m stuck living out that night again
I’m not falling apart
Ooh, oh
Weather on a sunny day
Time slows down; I wish you’d stay
Pass me by in crowded, dark hallways
Mmm
Try my hardest not to scream
I find my heart is growing weak
So leave your reasons on the bathroom sink
Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I’m stuck living out that night again
I’m not falling apart
I heard you say you needed me now
What’s the problem I can’t see
You destroyed me, I won’t fall apart again
I’m not falling apart
Take what you want
I will be just fine
You will be better off alone at night
Waiting and falling
Constantly calling out your name
Will it ever change?
Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I’m stuck living out that night again
I’m not falling apart
I heard you say you needed me now
What’s the problem I can’t see
You destroyed me, I won’t fall apart again
I’m not falling apart
They say “what goes around, comes around.” I’m a huge believer in karma…but sometimes bad situations make you wonder what you did to deserve it. It’s especially easy to wonder why when you haven’t done anything to deserve it. I really don’t ask for much, but anytime I start to think things are going my way…it’s inevitable to go wrong. Shame on me to actually think things were so great…
Love this. :)
If she’s amazing, she wont be easy. If she’s easy she won’t be amazing. If she’s worth it, you won’t give up. If u give up, ur not worth it.
I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start
You put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I’m home
How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around?
I can’t decide if I’ll let you save my life or if I’ll drown
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me ‘cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home
The world is coming down on me and I can’t find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can’t make you bleed if I’m alone
You put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go…
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, ‘cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home
I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I’ve never opened up
I’ve never truly loved ‘til you put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, ‘cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home
You put your arms around me and I’m home
